When the Work Works and You Still Don’t Feel Like You Do

I didn’t "launch" my new website. I just reemerged, URL style.

Because apparently even when you build the thing, you can still feel like the thing hasn’t landed inside you yet.

Like the success belongs to some future version of me who’s already unpacked & at home here, not the one knee-deep in half-opened boxes, moving the same stack of frames from one ADHD pile to another.

Everyone says entrepreneurship is a mirror, but it’s more like an MRI.

Every fear,

every unhealed thing,

every “maybe I’m not enough” lights up under the surface.

And right now, the loudest part of me is the one who thinks she’s fine because she finally monetized her grief.

It’s me turning every ache into an asset.

It’s survival dressed like strategy.

And I hate how fluent I’ve become in it. How easily I can pivot pain into a paragraph.

I tell myself it’s transmutation, but sometimes it’s just repackaged coping.

Sometimes the “transformation” is just me trying to stay ahead of the chemical half-life of my Vyvanse and the truth that evolution doesn’t feel like arrival, it just feels like better language for the same ache.

I keep calling it evolution because that sounds sexier than burnout.

But truthfully?

It’s just a high-functioning heartbreak that exists inside an LLC.

I don’t know where any of this is going.

But I know I used to ache for words like these ones that didn’t clean up the mess, just named it.

So maybe shouting them into the world wide void is enough.

Maybe it creates a spark of recognition for some other version of me out there:

the one still in the cubicle,

still overfunctioning,

still wondering if becoming yourself is supposed to feel this lonely.

---

About Amanda — the Entraprenotsure™ behind MYQB. I'm a queer, neurodivergent, recovering perfectionist who built a business out of grief, creativity, and way too many browser tabs. I’m not here to give you a one-size-fits-all formula. I’m here to help amplify your voice, your rhythm, and a way of showing up that feels like you.

I started Mind Your Queer Business for the misfits, the feelers, the overthinkers, and the creatively stubborn—especially those building empires in nap time increments. Around here, we build brands and marketing strategies that actually make sense for who you are, not who the internet told you to be.

If you’ve ever felt like entrepreneurship wasn’t built for someone like you, good news: you get to rebuild it.